I have been doing a lot of walking recently, not sure if I have mentioned it much.... I have always walked but like a lot of people I have not labelled it as 'walking', its been more a thing that has happened whilst doing something else, often for miles. A garden show visit will mean a lot of walking but it is not the priority aim of being there. The last year though has prompted me to explore my locality more in a more determined fashion. I now purposefully go out for walks that have no aim other than to walk.
I was having a bit of day of it. You know the sort of day, things not going to plan and more stress being caused by other people than I was really in the mood to deal with. I say 'being caused by other people' but in reality I mean I let them stress me which meant I needed to press pause. A gap suddenly appeared in my day and I thought 'sod it' or maybe an even ruder word than that and decided to go for a walk.
I set off with nowhere in particular in mind. I needed to walk, that was the priority. The first decision is which way will I turn out of the drive and today I turned left. A quick walk around the block I thought, that will do it, just 15 minutes or so to clear your head. Yet as I walked a thought started peculating in my head. A couple of weeks ago I had taken a new route that I had not tried before. There is a large green space just the other side of the main route into the city from where I live and I have been wandering around it for some time now; but this was a new way in I had not tried before. I had walked down towards the dual carriageway, through the underpass, along the road and then over the wooden walkway and
As my walk continued on my stressy day I knew with that immediate clarity that I needed to find my green pause. I needed to get to this field. Maybe it is that part of me that is so claustrophic, that cannot abide feeling closed in, that when I get to this space my soul expands to fill it.
I could have walked across the field to get to the main path quickly. But this was not the aim of the walk. I was already way past my 'fifteen minutes or so' intention and was now in that head space called 'couldn't give a monkey's' and just wanted to keep walking. I walked around the field and breathed.
Then I turned to join the path and walk through the rest of this space which is part playing fields, tree lined walks and part flood-meadow (or bog as it has been known as in the past). I was soon back on the road and turning towards home. My fifteen minute walk had become an hour, but now I was released from the knot I had tied myself in, now I felt able to return to what I needed to be doing. I had to make up the time later but it was worthwhile and now I know next time I feel like that I shall head for my green pause button. I shall walk, pause and breathe.
Stay safe all and be kind.